As I sit here and listen to Noah fuss and fight his sleep as he struggles in the downward dog position, I can't help but wonder why in the heck I ever tried to change my diet. Since changing my diet he has taken a turn for the worse. The fussing never stops. I don't know what to do anymore. I'd love to blame someone to make myself feel better but there's no one to blame but myself. Out of desperation I poured a large amount into what I thought would be the end all, but clearly no matter what doctor you see, they just don't have enough information to make an informed decision, The only person to do that is me, since I'm the one who has been with him every day of his life and knows everything about him. You know, one of my biology teachers last year told me that gluten is actually good for us in moderate amounts and that bit of information keeps circling around in my sleep-deprived brain. If you think about it, gluten is a protein in wheat, barley, etc...right? So if you take out gluten, you take out most fibrous grains, and you 'd assume that constipation would follow right? Unless of course you're eating enough fibrous fruits and vegetables, which clearly I'm not or Noah wouldn't struggle to go to the bathroom. Just because I'm sensitive to gluten, doesn't necessarily mean he is too. I know plenty of moms who aren't allergic to peanuts, yet their children are. Oh yeah I'm one of them! So, I've gone back to my normal diet as of a few days ago but still no change. I imagine it will take a couple weeks to level out since it took a couple weeks for him to progress to where he is now. So, I'm on a mission to figure out how to help my little angel because clearly he's hurting, and nobody with credentials seems to be able to figure it out either. I'm sure most people would say I'm making a big deal out of nothing and that it's normal for babies to be fussy, but it's not normal for him. Before the diet change, he struggled only at night. Now it's all day, all night, every day and every night. Either way, I'm going on day 3 with this awful migraine, 6 hours of sleep over the last 3 days, and a son that isn't comfortable whatsoever.
So for my first experiment/trial and error, I'm going to eat whatever I want. Whether that's fatty, dairy, veggies, whatever (this doesn't mean/include processed foods). The majority of the world seems to do that and get by just fine, so that is what I will try first. I'm going to document everything I eat within reason (skipping measurements and all that because well I just don't have time) and will document how he did that day, the day after and so on. I feel like it usually takes about 12-16 hours before whatever I eat passes through my milk. I'll also be documenting any solids HE eats.
I WILL figure this out. And there will come a day in the near future where I won't be complaining, ranting, or sounding like a negative Nancy. And when I do, maybe I'll be able to help other moms out there who are going through the same thing. Only time will tell.
