Nesting time [A time where OCD tendencies are allowed]

So it's true that there is such a thing called nesting. It started last weekend for me and my poor bathroom got the brunt of it. :} It's as if I can't get nor keep things clean enough! How bright can a white countertop shine?! How many times can carpet handle being vacuumed? How many times can clothes be folded before they begin to unthread? Hahahah Apparently not enough in my eyes!! However I do think it's healthy to nest. It has given me daily peace of mind knowing little Noah and I have an overly-clean abode to come home to. For anyone who knows me and my OCD tendencies, don't be frightened for me. I've got the cleaning under control. :}

Happy nesting!! ❤️

Pre-labor anxiety...or excitement?

I had my first official check up with the doc as we count down the days til D-Day.  On Wednesday I was 90% effaced and 1cm dilated.  At first I was absolutely ecstatic.  I mean that just means I'm getting closer to D-Day right?  But then later that night as I was going to bed, it really hit me and I was filled with anxiety.  Can I do this?  Am I strong enough to have a natural birth??  What if I hemorrhage or pass out from the pain?  Am I crazy for even having these thoughts?  Can any of you mothers out there relate with your first delivery??  Or should I be excited?  I know without a shadow of a doubt that my baby Noah is healthy and strong and all will be well with him, I just worry that I won't be strong enough.  Maybe when D-Day actually arrives, all this anxiety will turn into excitement?  Either way, I know I need to get my emotions in check because the only thing worrying does is bring negativity and uncertainty into my life and that always results in me getting sick from a weakened immune system because of all the worrying.  So I am going to do my best to not worry but rather prepare.  My doula and long time childhood friend is so very encouraging and supportive and I know that once the day is here she along with the rest of my support system will give me all the encouragement I will need to have a successful delivery.  I just wish I knew where this doubt came from.  I've been so very, almost eerily, calm this whole pregnancy and have taken pride in my inner strength and desire to have a natural birth, so when this icky doubt crept into my mind, I was shocked that it was so overwhelming.  I guess only time will tell.  

I'll check back in soon...

Liss

Almost there...almost...there.

Four weeks and three days left until D-Day and it can't come soon enough.  They tell you it will be tough, that your body won't be your own and that lack of sleep will become the norm, but no matter what they tell you it can never truly prepare you for the challenge of pregnancy.  Feet hurting from swelling even when off your feet, eating every two hours 24 hours a day and only taking naps in between when possible, morning sickness that lasts long into the wee hours of the night even in the 3rd trimester, the inability to hold it when a sneeze or little cough suddenly comes on, the endless worry of whether or not your feeding your precious little one enough and of what they need whilst in the womb, the loss of appetite, and the list goes on.  They also say though, that the minute you hold your little one in your arms for the first time, all of that goes away; that one look at your precious baby makes it all disappear.  I cannot wait for that day to come.  To hold my little Noah in my arms is the only thing that keeps me focused.  Parenthood is no joke, but it has proven to be, at least for me, one of the greatest gifts I could ever receive.

Cheers to mommy-hood...:]

Liss