So I'm curious. Is it normal to wake up every hour to eat? I've experimented with eating all different kinds of food before going to bed, and still, my third trimester proves to be a real challenge. lol I've even tried eating out and let me tell you from someone who has been eating healthy for so long, DON'T TRY IT. hahahha... Seriously though, it just made me sick to my stomach so I may as well stick to my little meals 24 times a day. My mom was kind enough to remind me that the quality of the food I eat is more important than the quantity. I gotta hand it to her, she may be on to something. Moms really do know what's best sometimes. In any case, I can not wait for the day that my nightly feedings are just to feed my little one and not myself. I honestly can't wait to skip meals. lol Seriously, I'm so over food.
Well, I'm going to try and approach this a bit more positively and just remember that ultimately, my son is being fed and that is really what matters. He is more than worth every bit of pain, nausea, illness and exhaustion I've experienced. Hands down.
Here's to motherhood and all that comes with it!
Sunday, October 27, 2013
Friday, October 18, 2013
I See the Light!! Can I get a whoop whoop?!?! :)
So after two weeks of death bed status I see the light at the end of the tunnel....I...am... alive!! I'm not 100% back to good health but man I'm close enough to be able to express my gratitude to my Heavenly Father for giving me the strength beyond my own some days to take care of myself, for blessing me with friends and family members that stepped in and made some of my days a little easier and MOST OF ALL for protecting my sweet little boy from harm from whatever the heck that was and all the tylenol and antibiotics I had to consume in a short period. It's crazy being a mom. I would be so miserable from what I was going through, but none of it came close to the worry, fear and heartache I felt thinking what would happen if any of it harmed my son. I'm supposed to provide a safe womb for him. I'm grateful he's still strong and healthy and I can only pray that the rest of my pregnancy will be illness free. I'm also grateful for a wonderful boss who held my position at work even though I missed two weeks and for incredible professors who worked with me on missing assignments and attendance. I truly am blessed far more than I think I deserve some days, but I won't argue with the man upstairs. :)
On a lighter note. I just want to thank all of you who for your prayers, your love and support! You all rock and I know Noah thanks you too. :) Yup, he just kicked with approval of said gratitude. :)
Ok, so here I am at 27 weeks...can't wait for November 6th when I get to see what this little guy looks like!! Yup, that's right, it will be time to get my 3D ultra sound. I'm going to do my best to fatten him up (and of course myself) for his close up. Anyone have any suggestions for food choices?? I still don't have an appetite which started even before I got sick. I have to literally envision myself eating something and enjoying it, wait a half hour to work up the strength to actually eat it then hope I keep it down...hahah...pregnancy rocks. No really, it does. :)
Loves,
Liss
On a lighter note. I just want to thank all of you who for your prayers, your love and support! You all rock and I know Noah thanks you too. :) Yup, he just kicked with approval of said gratitude. :)
Ok, so here I am at 27 weeks...can't wait for November 6th when I get to see what this little guy looks like!! Yup, that's right, it will be time to get my 3D ultra sound. I'm going to do my best to fatten him up (and of course myself) for his close up. Anyone have any suggestions for food choices?? I still don't have an appetite which started even before I got sick. I have to literally envision myself eating something and enjoying it, wait a half hour to work up the strength to actually eat it then hope I keep it down...hahah...pregnancy rocks. No really, it does. :)
Loves,
Liss
Saturday, October 12, 2013
Trying to find the light in the dark...
First, I'd like to apologize for not getting on recently, posting progress pics and being MIA. An unfortunate turn of events has landed me in bed.
Second, I'd like to vent for a bit if that's alright. As I lay in bed for the sixth day in a row, yes sixth, and endure the pain (and when I say pain I mean the bone-crushing/throbbing/sharp-stabbing/toothache times ten kind of pain) that has taken up residence in my left sinuses/mouth/jaw (not to mention the nausea accompanied by the occasional revisiting of foods I eat earlier in the day), I started to think ok. Melissa you have two options. Give in to the pain and let it rule your life, or accept the pain and continue with your life. I know the latter is the obvious choice, but I just have to say that this is the hardest and most painful thing I've had to go through in my life yet. Not to mention, being a single parent doesn't add to the "fluff", but rather makes it a bit more difficult just having the strength to go downstairs and refill my water or make food. I'm not trying to come off as complaining, but dang it sometimes I don't want to be the strong one. Has anyone ever felt that way? I've tried every remedy known to man (I think) to get rid of this pain but nothing is kicking it for good. It will disappear for a few hours (which I am SO grateful for at this point) but then it's right back. How does something like this take hold of an individual who was being so proactive at being healthy?! I was working out regularly, eating healthy (plant based mostly), taking my prenatals, extra vitamin C and drinking more than a gallon of water a day. I was on top of the world. Now, I can barely find the strength to leave my room. And for anyone who knows me lately, I don't complain often about pain whether it be emotional or physical. I usually just deal with it and move on. The more you think about it and put it "out there" the longer it takes to go away right? Well, I've broken down and I am now voicing my pain. I know pregnancy is hard and many women get sick during pregnancy but this feels like something entirely different. Probably because it's happening to me. Well I have finally hit a wall. I'm not having the perfect pregnancy, or having it super easy. What worries me the most is my sweet son's safety. How do I know he's ok in there? Am I eating enough even though I can't keep everything down? Is he getting enough protein? Is he hurting? Can he feel pain? I've tried not taking any tylenol today to spare him a day without it because I felt like I was poisoning him with all the tylenol I've taken this week. I pray every day, morning and night that he is protected from all this. I pray he's growing healthy and strong and that this Mama can get better so that I can get back to work and make money for the two of us. I just pray he's ok. Please be ok.
Ok, so now that I've complained enough to last me the year, I am going to express gratitude for the things and people in my life who make my life anything BUT hard.
I'm grateful for the gospel and the blessings that I receive every day for living it. I'm grateful for my Savior and His atoning sacrifice so that I may right my wrongs and return to Him with my family one day. I'm grateful for my Grandmother and her strength and amazing example. I'm grateful to my Mom for opening her house to me while I get back on my feet after an unfortunate but for the best situation. I'm grateful for my brother and his wife and kids for always supporting me and brightening my days. I'm grateful for my friends and their kindness. I'm grateful for pain and the opportunity I've had especially recently to learn to appreciate good health. I'm grateful for trials and the strength and wisdom I learn from them. I'm grateful for the opportunity to go to school and have a job so that I can better my financial situation for me and my son. But most of all, above anything else, I am so grateful for my precious son. For his sweet spirit and the joy he brings me. I'm honored to be his mother and I can't wait to meet him. Has this week been the hardest week of my life? Probably, but I know that one day soon I'll look back on it and know that it made me stronger and helped me realize the sacrifices one makes for their child. I will be wiser and more compassionate because of it. As long as I have my son, everything will be ok.
I'm going to get back to resting...or trying to at least...:)
Liss
P.S. If anyone has ever struggled with this kind of advanced sinus infection while pregnant, I would LOVE to hear about how you got through it. I'm desperate for hope at this point....
Second, I'd like to vent for a bit if that's alright. As I lay in bed for the sixth day in a row, yes sixth, and endure the pain (and when I say pain I mean the bone-crushing/throbbing/sharp-stabbing/toothache times ten kind of pain) that has taken up residence in my left sinuses/mouth/jaw (not to mention the nausea accompanied by the occasional revisiting of foods I eat earlier in the day), I started to think ok. Melissa you have two options. Give in to the pain and let it rule your life, or accept the pain and continue with your life. I know the latter is the obvious choice, but I just have to say that this is the hardest and most painful thing I've had to go through in my life yet. Not to mention, being a single parent doesn't add to the "fluff", but rather makes it a bit more difficult just having the strength to go downstairs and refill my water or make food. I'm not trying to come off as complaining, but dang it sometimes I don't want to be the strong one. Has anyone ever felt that way? I've tried every remedy known to man (I think) to get rid of this pain but nothing is kicking it for good. It will disappear for a few hours (which I am SO grateful for at this point) but then it's right back. How does something like this take hold of an individual who was being so proactive at being healthy?! I was working out regularly, eating healthy (plant based mostly), taking my prenatals, extra vitamin C and drinking more than a gallon of water a day. I was on top of the world. Now, I can barely find the strength to leave my room. And for anyone who knows me lately, I don't complain often about pain whether it be emotional or physical. I usually just deal with it and move on. The more you think about it and put it "out there" the longer it takes to go away right? Well, I've broken down and I am now voicing my pain. I know pregnancy is hard and many women get sick during pregnancy but this feels like something entirely different. Probably because it's happening to me. Well I have finally hit a wall. I'm not having the perfect pregnancy, or having it super easy. What worries me the most is my sweet son's safety. How do I know he's ok in there? Am I eating enough even though I can't keep everything down? Is he getting enough protein? Is he hurting? Can he feel pain? I've tried not taking any tylenol today to spare him a day without it because I felt like I was poisoning him with all the tylenol I've taken this week. I pray every day, morning and night that he is protected from all this. I pray he's growing healthy and strong and that this Mama can get better so that I can get back to work and make money for the two of us. I just pray he's ok. Please be ok.
Ok, so now that I've complained enough to last me the year, I am going to express gratitude for the things and people in my life who make my life anything BUT hard.
I'm grateful for the gospel and the blessings that I receive every day for living it. I'm grateful for my Savior and His atoning sacrifice so that I may right my wrongs and return to Him with my family one day. I'm grateful for my Grandmother and her strength and amazing example. I'm grateful to my Mom for opening her house to me while I get back on my feet after an unfortunate but for the best situation. I'm grateful for my brother and his wife and kids for always supporting me and brightening my days. I'm grateful for my friends and their kindness. I'm grateful for pain and the opportunity I've had especially recently to learn to appreciate good health. I'm grateful for trials and the strength and wisdom I learn from them. I'm grateful for the opportunity to go to school and have a job so that I can better my financial situation for me and my son. But most of all, above anything else, I am so grateful for my precious son. For his sweet spirit and the joy he brings me. I'm honored to be his mother and I can't wait to meet him. Has this week been the hardest week of my life? Probably, but I know that one day soon I'll look back on it and know that it made me stronger and helped me realize the sacrifices one makes for their child. I will be wiser and more compassionate because of it. As long as I have my son, everything will be ok.
I'm going to get back to resting...or trying to at least...:)
Liss
P.S. If anyone has ever struggled with this kind of advanced sinus infection while pregnant, I would LOVE to hear about how you got through it. I'm desperate for hope at this point....
Sunday, October 6, 2013
Second round of morning sickness?!?!
Well since I've been working, I've had the wonderful pleasure of dealing with morning sickness again. I'm guessing it's because when I have guests back to back I'm not able to eat like I used to. Once I'm past the starving point I finally get a moment to eat and well nothing sounds good nor settles in my tummy because I've waited too long. My school work has been affected and my health is going downhill. Sowly. Nothing to be too alarmed about, but I can't help but wonder how women do it! How do they work all day, go to school full time and find time to eat, sleep and do everything else they need to?
I'm going to try and remain hopeful and try and get creative to find ways around all this and somehow not let any area of my life suffer. First and foremost though is the health and safety of my son, then my health then everything else. Anyone have suggestions?? Please feel free to comment if you've found ways to manage or rather juggle it al! :)
Praying I don't have another night like last night....
Liss
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